WTF Wednesday – Random Style

Taking a little time out this morning for a little blogging – random style.

The baby is almost better, just a lingering cold and some appetite problems. I think we did good, as he stayed hydrated at all times, and even though he felt miserable, he was still happy. That fever was quite scary though! On Saturday, I came down with the same thing and he was right – it sucked! I am still stuffed up and having tummy issues – but on the mend. My husband came down with it Sunday, and is just starting to feel better. How in the heck do you get the flu in June? For the most part, we don’t leave the house, and childcare comes to us. Must have been on a family outing – or that horrible night at the mall.

So, I am trying to get my blogging mojo back since the incident. You all have been so encouraging, I even got snail mail telling me not to stop! Sometimes when it’s quiet out there, I forget that people actually read and enjoy this stuff. And since this is my blog I guess I can tell you all what happened. Family drama – inlaws -  over someone acting pretty childish and taking things too seriously. And a ton of judgement about me – all assuming things about me without even getting to know me personally. So completely untrue. It’s all still very confusing, and if they weren’t family I would totally cut them off, because I don’t hang out with people like this – but now we just have to put them in the background. It completely sucks, and we aren’t sure what to do from here since now we feel totally unappreciated and unwanted. It’s hard to trust when someone puts on a face around you- you wonder how many other people are doing the same. But, I am trying not to assume things either. They don’t like me, and made it very clear, and I guess I have to deal with it. It’s hard to change someones opinion about you when their mind is totally made up – and everything they are judging you on is totally made up in their minds.

I have never had this problem with anyone. Friends and family don’t understand it. But, I have to realize that the opinion of one person doesn’t make me. I guess I am a pleaser, and I try to be open and let people in. But if someone doesn’t want to come in and decides to project something onto me that they don’t like about themselves – I have to just deal with it I guess. It’s out of my control.

Bleah. It makes my stomach hurt. My dad told me just to trust my heart and put into the back of my mind for now. Only time will tell. I just didn’t get an apology. I got an apology of “I shouldn’t have told you what I have been thinking” not a “I’m sorry for hurting your feelings” apology. But, I can’t expect that from a person like that I guess. I apologized, sincerely, up and down for anything I unintentionally did. That’s the best I can do. It’s all so dumb. I just wish they would have come and talked to me like an adult about things and not like this was highschool. I am almost 30 years old – I thought this shit was over!

So anyway – pretty bruised but this week is already a ton better than last. Since everyone is ill, we are having mommy/daddy daycare all week while we are working. It’s going alright. Lots of work to do, so I better get back to it.