Taking a little time out this morning for a little blogging – random style.
The baby is almost better, just a lingering cold and some appetite problems. I think we did good, as he stayed hydrated at all times, and even though he felt miserable, he was still happy. That fever was quite scary though! On Saturday, I came down with the same thing and he was right – it sucked! I am still stuffed up and having tummy issues – but on the mend. My husband came down with it Sunday, and is just starting to feel better. How in the heck do you get the flu in June? For the most part, we don’t leave the house, and childcare comes to us. Must have been on a family outing – or that horrible night at the mall.
So, I am trying to get my blogging mojo back since the incident. You all have been so encouraging, I even got snail mail telling me not to stop! Sometimes when it’s quiet out there, I forget that people actually read and enjoy this stuff. And since this is my blog I guess I can tell you all what happened. Family drama – inlaws - over someone acting pretty childish and taking things too seriously. And a ton of judgement about me – all assuming things about me without even getting to know me personally. So completely untrue. It’s all still very confusing, and if they weren’t family I would totally cut them off, because I don’t hang out with people like this – but now we just have to put them in the background. It completely sucks, and we aren’t sure what to do from here since now we feel totally unappreciated and unwanted. It’s hard to trust when someone puts on a face around you- you wonder how many other people are doing the same. But, I am trying not to assume things either. They don’t like me, and made it very clear, and I guess I have to deal with it. It’s hard to change someones opinion about you when their mind is totally made up – and everything they are judging you on is totally made up in their minds.
I have never had this problem with anyone. Friends and family don’t understand it. But, I have to realize that the opinion of one person doesn’t make me. I guess I am a pleaser, and I try to be open and let people in. But if someone doesn’t want to come in and decides to project something onto me that they don’t like about themselves – I have to just deal with it I guess. It’s out of my control.
Bleah. It makes my stomach hurt. My dad told me just to trust my heart and put into the back of my mind for now. Only time will tell. I just didn’t get an apology. I got an apology of “I shouldn’t have told you what I have been thinking” not a “I’m sorry for hurting your feelings” apology. But, I can’t expect that from a person like that I guess. I apologized, sincerely, up and down for anything I unintentionally did. That’s the best I can do. It’s all so dumb. I just wish they would have come and talked to me like an adult about things and not like this was highschool. I am almost 30 years old – I thought this shit was over!
So anyway – pretty bruised but this week is already a ton better than last. Since everyone is ill, we are having mommy/daddy daycare all week while we are working. It’s going alright. Lots of work to do, so I better get back to it.
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AND, another thing (I just read on your blog) we are both IRISH.
This is TOO WEIRD.
Thank you for your kind words, as always!! Big Germy Hugs!! =D
Oh boy! When I said we were living parallel lives, I had no idea that it was even more true. I have experienced, still experience and am sure will experience the same situation. Unfortunately is my family. My sister is a complete fake. She loves to put on the face of exuberance and nicety around my parents, but stabs me in the back constantly. Don’t you love it when these people post some totally meaningless comfort on your facebook posts, just so everyone will think they are so caring. Of course they never pick up the phone, email, or express any of this to you personally. My parents think she is so loving, yet behind their backs she is plotting my death
I have dealt with this all of my life. From her rushing to plan her wedding one month before mine, just to have all the family at her wedding. No one could make it to mine. Then my favorite is rushing to get pregnant with her second child when she found out I was pregnant. Even went as far as to say it better be a girl – seeing as I was having a girl. Her daughter is 5 months younger – she miscarried once from the time I found out I was pregnant.
So much fun, let me tell you! My parents pretend to be blind to all of it. They even try to make us friends, which only makes her worse. I can’t do anything to change it. She hates me just for being alive! Not much I can do about it. I have tried only to get slapped in the face over and over. I am now 38 years old and I am tired. I don’t need the drama. I choose happiness, forgiveness, and have let go of my anger. It only eats you up inside.
So, i guess since you are a virgin to this type of behavior – take it from a veteran. THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO – just ignore it! They hate that, because they act this way for attention. It drives them crazy when they don’t get it. Check out my blog—- you will see many of these types of discussions as I struggle with my family. I just finished a post about what I am currently struggling with. You can feel better about your situation when you know you are not alone!
Feel better soon! Hugs to you and your family – from a distance of course – I don’t want the flu